Live Metanoia

It’s the end of the year. The strange twilight zone time between the holidays of Christmas and New Years where you don’t know who you are or what day it is. Where you feel stuck in limbo. I always feel a strange melancholy during this time. Where I reflect on what this past year has brought and what I did and did not accomplish. What I want to accomplish for this next year and have hopes and dream before Life thoroughly tears them apart and rearranges them how it sees fit.

Since the beginning of 2020 and the pandemic, or what I like to call the world’s largest social experiment, I feel that everything has been a strange purgatory. Everything has felt like its hanging overhead and we are a people are waiting for the other shoe to drop. It feels like the media, and politics, and the news, and all the social sites are just filling the air with as much distraction as possible and that distraction has been going on for two years now.

Don’t you feel needlessly distracted? Restless or out of sorts maybe? Or maybe you’re just tired. Tired of hearing the same thing again and again. Tired of there being a new virus, or variant, or fear and tired of the only thing the news wants to report is negativity. Maybe you are tired of social media and reading the same posts or liking the same pictures over and over. Or you are tired of there not being food on the shelves at the supermarkets and gas costing you your savings account.

 Everything just feels so staged, so inauthentic. Que Twilight Zone music.

I recently started cleaning out my closet and going through my kitchen looking for items to get rid of. With the new year coming I always intend to start the new year fresh. I want to declutter and live with less.

Less things. Less stuff. Less stress. I think everyone wants this, but so few actually go through with it. Or they get distracted.

 Or they make excuses.

The kids keep them busy, or they are visiting family during the holidays, or there’s never enough time. Time. The biggest excuse of all. Time moves the same. Time never changes. It’s you who does. It’s your responsibility. Its. All. On. You.

When do we get sick and tired of living in the excuse? When do we stop our own merry go round of lazy behavior? The next Sunday? The start of the work week? The beginning of a month? The New Year?

‘I am going to eat healthy this new year’

‘I am going to get out of debt this new year’

‘I am going to…blah blah blah’

Resolutions are good, don’t get me wrong, but they only work if you stick to them. And as much as it pains me to say, nine out of ten people do not stick to them. Is it because it’s hard? I mean, if it were easy everyone could do it. Everyone would lose ‘that ten pounds’. Everyone would be debt free. But hard is how growth works. You grow through the struggle of change. You grow stepping out of your comfort zone. You grow by doing what no one else will, and being someone no one else can be.

It’s just that no one wants to grow anymore. They want their needless distraction, their comfort zone.

But have we forgotten that we are a people that said no to comfort? Our ancestors left their home country and everything they knew and boarded a disease infested boat to come to an unknown country with few provisions and a damn dream. When have we forgotten we are the blood of people who spat comfort and control in the face and said ‘You don’t own or know me, I’ll make my own way!’. Where is everyone at today that we don’t remember you have to put your head down and put. in. the. work.

Has our history been sold to the highest bidder already that we have forgotten it?

You want a resolution for this year? How about you remember who you are and where you came from. Where your parents and their parents before them came from. How about we remember what our county was established on, and everything we have put into it making it the country it is today. The comforts we have. The freedoms we fought for. How about we don’t give into our fragile distractions. We don’t take the easy way out. We take the time, and not excuses, to put in the work and try.

Try to be a better person. Try to keep your home livable even with all the kids and pets, and events. Try to eat more vegetables and fruits and take less pills doctors throw at you. Try to get outside more. Try not to buy needless crap to fill our restless souls. Try to put down the damn phone and get off the social media and LIVE.

Just Try.

Maybe that’s a resolution we should all make and stick to.

My journey continues-

Kaycee