Live Metanoia

Good. Lord.

It’s the end of June 2025, about to be July. It’s been months since my last post.

My bad. That’s on me.

Life has been throwing dirty shots recently and I have been working my literal butt off. Trying to fix my finances from my ‘Mess around and Find out’ era in 2024 was a dumb dumb on my part.

I also moved out of my apartment and into a home- which both bathrooms flooded two weeks after I moved in.

On a newly built home.

Imagine me being thrilled about that.

And I also had to build a fence for my dogs. So I’ve been a busy bee.

However, this is a perfect opportunity for me to finish writing and post a blog that’s been sitting in my notes app for a while.

I’m currently at Sound of Loud music festival in Houston. Eight bands and a day full of music. I go out of my way to go to concerts. It’s detrimental to me; mentally, emotionally, and even physically to relax and experience live music. But without further ado, here’s my rambling about our health and our incessant need to buy stuff.

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I think often on how codependent we as a people have become on using or consuming poison. How we often can’t sit with yourselves or our own thoughts. 

I think about how most people blame an anxiety, depression, or some other mental or emotional distress that majority of people are not actually diagnosed with, but claim to have. 

I think of how we supplement our “issues” with alcohol, illegal drug use, or social media instead of utilizing an actual healthy alternative, or seeking a professional to medicate you properly if you have a real, diagnosable disorder. 

Because contrary to popular belief, it does take a professional to properly diagnose someone with a mental or emotional disorder and not some rando in a TikTok video. 

This isn’t an attack on mental health, or people who suffer with disorders, however it’s more of a realization of our human condition. 

How we crave the easy way out in all situations. And how we need to stop doing that. 

This is mostly stemmed from the fact that no matter where I look these days I see people who are addicted.

Addicted to alcohol.

Addicted to vapes, weed, CBD, THC, chewing tobacco or dip, and yes even caffine, and everything in between. 

Addicted to attention. Addicted to shopping. Addicted to buying things we don’t need. Addicted to social media.

And even though there’s now scientific evidence out, and continuing to be researched, that marijuana and alcohol ruin your brain and in fact make mental and emotional disorders worse, people still use it in copious amounts.

I see ads for these items in every social media platform. In every gas station. In every grocery store. Even in pharmacy’s I have seen some type of inhalant that’s supposed to “help” you in some way but has no backed research to prove it. 

We have become so codependent on temporary fixes we are willing to slowly kill ourselves to feel temporarily better. 

It is insane as it is sad. 

I can’t speak much on addiction. I don’t drink alcohol or smoke. So I’m not familiar with what that version of addiction feels like. I’ve never done drugs, but due to my profession I see many a people who are addicted to these substances and what it does to themselves, their friends, and their families. 

And what I have seen not due to my profession- I see the general public addicted to vapes and inhalants. From teenagers illegally buying them, to grown men sucking on their little cancer sticks, they are everywhere. And the excuses as to why they use them, need them, and have them are astounding. 

I’m not saying I’m without fault. I drink caffeine alot. I don’t know if I’d consider myself addicted to it, but when I’m working nights I do drink energy drinks.

However, what I am saying is I wished people would take their health more seriously. Go to the professionals and take the steps to get healthy. Not choose what the rest of the world is doing.

I also know that this can be hard as well. There’s a lot of noise in the medical field right now with doctors being paid to lie to their patients or just throw medications at them instead of actually looking into cause and effect.

I understand how backwards this may sound from me- don’t trust the medical field, but go get checked by a professional. I know, what is one to do? The only thing I can say is research. Research your doctor. Go do the blood work. Get the results. Find a specialist. Fight for your body and rights. Have them record everything. If they refuse to test something for you- make them put it in your record that they refuse.

You have to look out for you now. Because unfortunately a lot of medical professionals don’t. But – and BIG but here– self medicating is NOT looking out for yourself. Because as much as I believe you should advocate for yourself, I do believe there are some doctors, medical professionals, mental health professionals out there who actually want to help. Who do have a passion for healing others. And those who actually care do have the medical knowledge that you do not to help.

Are they hard to find?

Yup. But they are there. And they are probably worth seeing.

So here’s to your health. Your brain. Your emotional wellbeing.

May you move your body and challenge your mind.

May you regular your emotions as well as them hormones.

My journey continues

-Kaycee