Live Metanoia

The end of April is nigh and I realize I have not posted in a hot minute. Well, ya girl has been busy. Working 12 hour nightshift work since January, I constantly play catch up on my days off with cleaning and errands and an attempt of a social life. I don’t do anything on my work days- the time is taken up by sleeping, and then when I’m off, I’m doing the most. And I really do mean the most.

This month I’ve been to four, no five maybe, music concerts. There is nothing that fills me with more happiness than a live music experience. And nothing heightens that feeling with relaxation and dopamine then splurging at the venue for table seating or VIP perks.

Cause as much as I love the energy, the music, and just the overall experience- there’s always those idiots in the crowd who don’t know how to act, and I’m in my thirties and to old for the nonsense. Give me fancy seating with a good view of the stage and a waitress to bring me a drink instead of me being pushed, shoved, and hit by “pick me”, wanna be TikTok influencers who are only there for the views and not for the music. And I say this as someone who has stood in the crowd at standing room only venues sacrificing my back and my patience with the obnoxious populace around her. It’s strange to love the atmosphere of live music and concerts but not like people.

I love the vibe- but from afar or at my assigned seat where I’m not getting struck in the head by a grown man who thinks he should crowd surf. The audacity.

I’ve had great experiences and I’ve have not so great ones. Majority of concert goers I’ve spoken to, and made temporary friends with, are so nice and chill. They are true fans and so excited for the artist and the show. However, I’ve also been around people who’ve tried to shove their way to the front, thinking the concert they are at is their own Wattpad story and the artist will see them in the crowd and just *fall in love*.

Spare me the delusion.

I feel like there’s a concert etiquette that some people missed and a lot of people don’t realize that you can have a great time and not be an, pardon my French, asshole.

Some of my better experiences I had were at venues with assigned seats, VIP tables, or VIP Artist meet and greets. And maybe, and don’t misunderstand as what I’m about to type as being snobbish or rude, but maybe the reason I enjoy the perks or spend the extra money is the VIP people tend to be of a higher maturity, socioeconomic status and emotional competence ?

I mean some of these experience are pricy and the self absorbed punk who can’t act right may not always be able to afford it or drop an additional $150 or more plus the concert ticket. I feel as I write that, people may balk, thinking that paying for extras is silly, or pricy, or maybe not frugal enough.

But for me this is about life experiences. This is about living without any regrets and looking back on these memories, photos, and videos with fondness. This is about going to an event and paying extra to be comfortable and happy.

This is also about me paying for my own experiences myself, with my own money, and it’s not anyone’s business to worry about or comment on either.

If I can afford it- what’s your problem? That you can’t?

Those two sentences above may seem spicy and out of pocket, but it was mentioned to me once about how do I expect to find someone to “provide” for me when I do all the things I do and spend money the way I do.

I laughed until choked and then got angry. My lifestyle isn’t that expensive or crazy. I maintain it just fine by myself. I don’t need a man to do that for me. In fact I want someone to do these things WITH me instead. So obviously anyone I would be interested would not be someone who wouldn’t be able to run and gun with me.

Duh.

The concept I would stop enjoying my life because I got into a relationship with someone who could not “afford me” is as heinous as it is hilarious.

Again, spare me the delusion.

Anyway, I still have more concerts this year that I am super happy about. One I will even have to stand at unfortunately, but still can’t wait to go due to the band that’s performing. I’ll sacrifice my feet and lower back for the sake of Sleep Token. They’re worth it.

And I think as this year goes the concerts I’ve already bought for and have planned are enough for me this year. I don’t plan to go to any additional ones unless it’s one of my favorite bands and everything fits just right (venue, seating, location, perks).

Right now I’m preparing for my trip to Bali in the first week of June. I’m literally counting down the days especially as we enter May. I’ve never flown internationally or traveled as far away as Bali for vacation so I’m nervous, but I’m very excited. 8 days of events and adventure here I come!

Let’s hope that Bali is nothing like Hostile or Taken movies. Because I am too mouthy and sarcastic to last long in a kidnap situation.

I’m joking of course.

Well kind of.

My journey continues-

Kaycee.