Live Metanoia

It’s the holiday season and everyone is ready for a new year.

I feel like even though 2022 is almost over, I am still wondering where the heck 2020 went. It seems as if 2020 and 2021 were just a mix mash, COVID panic induced blur. What did we do ? Where did it go?

I honestly think it’s one of life’s big injustices that when we are younger we feel as though time passes by glacially slow, but when we are thrusted unceremoniously into adulthood time flys by like a sports car on the highway. I like to reflect about many things as the year comes to a close.

Firstly, I’m very thankful I’ve had another year with my family with no serious accident, illness, or death. Another year spent making memories and in good health is always something to look back on and to be thankful and happy about. Life becomes so fleeting as you get older and as cheesy as it sounds, you don’t realize what you miss until it’s gone. I’m close to my family and talk to my parents and visit them often, and I couldn’t imagine not being able to visit them or watch my niece and nephews run around my brothers home. As I get older, I realize how important building memories and cultivating relationships are. We need these things to survive. Weather we want to admit it or not, we need others to survive and thrive as well. So I am happy and blessed to have completed this year with my family still intact and active in their own lives- building their own memories.

Now while I’m not currently in a relationship as 2022 ends, this year wasn’t a total die-alone in a basement- surrounded by dogs who eat me- situation. I dated more than I have in a while this year, conquering a goal of mine to put myself out there more this year and I ended up in a relationship for seven months out of this year. I learned a lot about myself during this time. I learned communication is key, as well as following my gut and not dragging things along when feelings change, and they can and do change. I realized I am in a more confident, no time wasting headspace in my life where if the vibes aren’t right, or you are not equally yoked- it’s time to move on. I am a firm believer that there’s someone out there for most, (serial killers not withstanding) but it takes work on your end in putting yourself out there and being social. I had a wonderful time while in my relationship. My ex was a good guy, who made me believe that maybe I am capable of being loved and being in a relationship and that there’s not something wrong with me like I believed about myself for a while before him. Never the less, sometimes people just are meant to be friends. Sometimes people are meant to be in your life for a season or serve a specific purpose, so we ended things as friends which I think is a better relationship for both of us.

I read and listened to many audiobooks this year. I read a mix of fiction and nonfiction. I listened to a mix as well, two of my favorite audiobooks coming from Cameron Hanes and David Goggins. Their stories are amazing, and their no nonsense, grit only, determination and discipline attitudes really kick you in the pants and put things into perspective. I also took a step in the right direction health wise this year. I started going to the gym again. First, I got a personal trainer for 12 weeks to get back into things from a long health hiatus where I wasn’t cleared to work out medically. Shout out to Cara (@coachedbycara on instagram) who was very knowledgeable and total fit goals. I then started at a new 24 hour gym and I met some other super fit people who workout and train there as well. Some of them are personal trainers and seem to know what they are doing. I am very much a ‘proof is in the pudding’ type of person when it comes to fitness. You can’t cheat be in shape. So if a trainer isn’t healthy theirselves, or their clients aren’t showing any results, then they aren’t the real deal to me. Luckily, the guys I’ve met at my gym get things done and stay educated , which I always looks for in fitness motivation and in the industry. In fitness and health, there is unfortunately a lot of people who can get a personal training certification and not actually know what they are doing or follow through with the hard work it takes.

For this up coming year, I am already looking forward to making changes and completing more goals. I hope 2023 brings me financial peace and fitness accomplishments. I hope my new Etsy shop (LiveMetanoiaOrganics) I just opened does well as I enjoy making organic beauty products. I feel like a kitchen witch concocting little beauty potions when I make my scrubs, lotions, and balms. It’s just fun. I hope to go to more concerts next year and to become more proficient using my sewing machine, making quilts for my friends and family. I hope to visit Ireland for ten to fourteen days – or at least be able to put more money toward that goal. I hope the housing market will be in a stable enough place to where I can move out of my apartment and into a home. I want to train and run in a half marathon. I want to run a 5k in my police uniform. I want to roller skate and finish my leg tattoo sleeve. I hope to take more pictures with my camera and make more memories and create lasting friendships. I hope to date more, and maybe even have a romantic relationship. I want to go to more church services and maybe involve myself in the church more. I want to be happy, joyful, fulfilled, and healthy.

I hope 2023 is everything I hope and dream of and more. I hope you reader have some goals for 2023 and that you get to fulfill them. Life is to short to just survive. We have to thrive. We have to work and put in the effort to have the big reward. So, hold your loved ones close at the end of this holiday season and year. Value your time with them and look forward to the coming days.

Let 2023 be the year you live.

My journey continues-

Kaycee